I have been realizing the way that I have been too indulged in this life. You know when you come home from school and you feel so tired, and you just want to take all of your clothes off and you leave it on the floor, just lying there, as if they were your burdens and you're finally free from it; and the next morning you find them gone, either magically poofed into another gravity or taken away by munchkins who cannot afford clothes, but they're not there, gone. G-O-N-E, and then next thing you know they're already hung up in your wardrobe, ready to go through a day at school with you.
It's the life that I used to have, but I don't want that life anymore. I don't want people doing things for me, thinking things out for me, making me not do what I'm supposed to do. I want to be that responsible young woman who can make her own choices, who can do things by herself, who can help out and be an example towards others.
Soon enough I'll be graduating from high school, and I'll be on my own. To be honest, even right now I feel I'm on my own. Nobody there to back me up and do things for me. Even though sometimes it feels a bit hard, but I know it's all for the better. Who the hell am I going to rely on when (say,) I've got a meeting the next day and all my good blouses are un-laundried and they smell like fish and I need to look good for it? None other than myself. Who's going to care for that in the future?
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